Just want to give up....

I have been through a lot...and end up what I think the best..At least I tried my best to fight for I have right now.
and...your one phone can ruin everything...saying something..this is not enough, that is not good...Meaning I will not have good life in the future....
About what I like, what I care, what I think...everything just seems like trash to you...

I may not be those smart people. I can't do what you saw people did because I am not them. Think I don't want to be smart? Think I don't care everything? Saying not comparing me with others...but what about all those talk? "Someone someone did this, and he/ she went good for his life....those people did that, you did the same???" If you want to know, then you should go find out by yourself, but not on me.
Do you know how tough things went on me? I have been holding back a lot and not telling you of what I went through...because I just don't want you to worry too much...or maybe you just don't ever care or want me to do more...But I guess those are not working.
Do you know.....When I need a talk..I just have no idea who can listen to me and give me opinions..so I just ended dealing all those by myself..

Enough is enough..there is no more pushing me like that...
All the things I went through may seems so easy to you and it happened to everyone...but not me...
I deserved what I did. Not because of your demand or what you want...I can deal with and went through all those things not because of your pushing. Your pushing will never help...

Yes, there is nothing I can do...but if you tell me to deal with it..then sorry, I can't.
I have enough...You are pushing to my bottom line...
I will just give up and let go....